I have always been caught up in the number on the scale, the size of the jeans. Although those forms of measurement are still important to me, I now understand that there are so many other ways to measure success in this healthy lifestyle journey. Healthy is the new Skinny!
This is my story.
In many ways, I am similar to other moms or even anyone hitting their 40’s. Before I had kids, I was not a heavy person. I was just girl that always thought she needed to lose 10 lbs. I generally felt and looked healthy.
At 38 I got married. I was pregnant 4 months later and had Sydney at 40. I was sick for the entire 10 months of the pregnancy and gained over 50lbs. I was still hanging on to over 25lbs when I got pregnant for Jack. Again, the pregnancy was extremely difficult and I was sick the entire time. I managed to lose the “Jack” weight but still was carrying all of the weight from my first pregnancy. When I looked in the mirror, I didn’t even know who the person was that was staring back at me. I knew I was in there somewhere but, “she” was hard to find. I was disgusted with myself and my inner voice was just brutal.
As a single person, I had always been active and loved rollerblading, volleyball and dance classes. I really missed those activities but I couldn’t figure out how to incorporate them into this new life of mine. I had to come up with something else.
During what I call my desperate phase I did Nutrisystem, a diet delivery meal plan, and Medifast. I had some success but I never really felt good and it was always short lived. I think my body was probably in shock and angry with me!
Jack was 2 when I decided enough was enough. I was 45!
I gained and lost the same 8 lbs. the first half of 2011. In July I said enough is enough. Hired a trainer and by October had GAINED 8lbs. I think my metabolism had flat lined. After that, I started having success but still needed to find my love. What was going to keep me coming back for more?
Enter the Revolution, Spin Revolution!
In January 2012, my sister encouraged me to sign up for a spin class. I was excited to give it a try but so anxious because I had such a long way to go to “look” healthy. I wondered if I wasn’t “fit” enough to go. But I did and I can’t even express how I felt in that first class. Can they all tell that I can’t keep up? How the hell am I supposed to get myself out of the saddle? Please please just give me the strength to finish so I can walk out of here with my dignity!!! It was tough. I was internally beating myself up. I still hated myself for being the “fat” girl in the back row, hiding and ashamed. But I went, I finished and I went back for more. I was proud of myself. Even that first class, as hard as it was, left me with that “runner’s high” feeling. From the beginning I felt encouraged by Nancy. I got over that initial saddle sore period. I added spinning into my routine. At 3 months I was a regular. As my confidence grew, I started taking the other instructors classes. That feeling of encouragement from the instructors was a common thread. Everyone gives you their ALL for that hour.
At 6 months I started doing doubles on Sunday. The habit formed, the passion ignited. I was HOOKED. Spinning had become my “thing”; the Revolution in particular. This place is completely different from other spinning facilities. I personally believe that there is a unique energy and true camaraderie spirit shared by those that regularly attend classes. The variety of classes that are offered keep you from getting stale or bored. The workout is always a challenge for me. As I get stronger, I push harder; always striving to improve my strength and endurance. Motivation requires finding what you love. For me, it’s a spin class.
So, when I think about where I am today…
In January 2013 I celebrated my 1 year Anniversary at Spin Revolution by taking and PASSING the certification course to become a spin instructor! Passing that certification course was a “crossing the finish line” moment for me; A Gift to myself. I have lost a total of 48lbs, reduced my BMI, lost over 8 inches in my waist and said goodbye to 3 sizes. What I have gained is love and regained confidence in myself, surrounded myself with wonderful people who are fitness minded and supportive of a healthy lifestyle and HUGE respect for all who take that first step into any fitness center. This may sound cliché but if I can do this, anyone can do this. The hardest part is taking that first step. But I am 48 and feel better than ever. Thank you Nancy and the Revolution!
I’d say this is “the end” but really this is only the beginning!!!!